We hold, knowing that we must release;
Knowing that the moment cannot last.
My needy hands pull into the soft cashmere,
Compressing the contours of her lithe body into mine.
Her fine blonde hair cushioning our interlocked heads.
I can feel her pushing into me, …..
A mess of jarring emotions scream inside my head:
Boundless passion, insatiable yearning,
Hopeless wishing, painful acceptance.
But I am mute. Hung on the knot of infusing despair.
Unrelentless time has counted down its sober seconds.
We unravel from each other.
I catch a flickering glimpse into those beautiful haloed pupils
Before they close, and our lips converge.
A single slow-motion kiss.
A light but solid touch, calming yet searing.
I wish it could last forever.
She moves back with a slow heaviness, turning.
The final connection, our linked hands,
Offer upwards as each finger gently slides loose.
Then, gradually, she slips away from me.
The source of my only complete love
Slipping uncontrollably away from me.
I can see my limp heart sink before me
Down into the dank depths of obscure eternity
Like a discarded shell disappearing into the murky ocean.
As she approaches the corner, she turns,
A final slight, supporting smile transmits from her lips
Before the cold concrete swallows her.
I wait, staring. Willing her to reappear.
Denied tears begin to pool inexorably.
I force my eyes together to shut out the reality.
Her fresh scent is still faint in my nostrils,
But even that tantalizing presence is fading now.
And inside, I die.